Gone!

Shocking news of my father's death really hit me hard, i don't know whether i can laugh anymore. It's Ramadhan, a holy month where all muslim devotes themselves to hunger and thirst in order to fulfill one of the five pillars. Little do non-muslim knows, fasting month does not mean that one must stop from eating and drinking alone, but it is more than that. It suppose to be a month where we muslim can clean our soul and purify our sinned heart. To me, i love Ramadhan. However, i doubt it will ever be the same.


xoxo.

Random post...

Assalammualykum,

Aha! it has been so long i havent post anything here, there's not much of time, no inspirational, trouble, trouble, trouble....lol, Sigh, heavy hurdle...it feels like there's a big boulder on shoulder that had been lifted...i feel free now and a bit out focus cause i stil have some issue with myself... to sum up my last few weeks...now im on exam mode, yesterday i had my durian and it was simply awesome..  going to have another go today....and the best of all, i lose my bestfriend, again! i think that sums up everything, no need for details...it just sort of happened and to be honest i dont even know why...so im just gonna let go and close this chapter for this semester, that brings nothing but pure pain...and i like to call it the break up semester where everyone is ending their relationship...yep i can just list all break ups here but i think it would better be private...well now i hope everything will go as planned....today is falsafah n tomorrow wacana n kenegaraan the day after then ill b free with nothing to do....future plan...? havent thought bout it..arghhhh im too lazy to read!!!!!!!

Friends or no Friends...

It's been months i refuses myself to blog anymore, had been struggling with conflicts, desire, and sort of  usual thing i have been through...but now everything seems foolish. Each time taken out from me has been really meaningful and honestly i say, i enjoyed every moment of it. Nevertheless, i think it's the best time for me to diminish all of these relationship i have. I will have to walk alone, again. The time has come for me to think about myself and indulge in my own welfare, as it would be selfish for me to neglect my own needs and my own desire just to please others. I need to be more concern of what my own thoughts think of me, rather letting myself manipulated by other thinking, i AM better than this. Friends or no friends, i have to face the music.

Mak maafkan adik, adik tewas...

Mak maafkan adik,
Adik gagal menunai permintaan mak,
Mak suruh adik belajar,
Tapi adik main....

Mak maafkan adik,
Adik gagal dalam memegang janji,
Adik janji dengan mak nak bawa balik segulung ijazah,
Tapi adik gagal...

Mak maafkan adik,
Adik gagal jadi orang yang berguna,
Mak laburkan duit untuk adik kesekolah supaya jadi orang baik,
Tapi adik tetap dengan perangai bodoh adik...

Adik tahu,
Mak dah banyak bersusah payah membesarkan kami sembilan beradik,
Mak dah banyak berkorban untuk kami semua,
Mak dah banyak telan tohmahan orang kampung atas dosa kami semua,

Mak gadai harta mak,
sebab nak tengok adik masuk U,
Mak habiskan simpanan mak,
semata-mata nak kami merasa apa yang mak ketinggalan,
Mak bersekang mata jahit baju yang upahnya tiga ringgit sehelai,
sebab nak kami berjaya didunia dan akhirat...
 Tapi...
Apa yang adik balas?
Apa yang mak dapat?
 
Mak maafkan adik, mak...
Adik tak mampu lagi,
tak mampu menanggung tanggungjawab ni lagi, mak...
Adik tewas.

31st March, 10:11 AM
by Nazri Noor